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Aug 29 2015

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A Month of Boundaries: Red Line Book Club

Hillel gifted us with this idea of creating a space within a space after he started busting out moves at a club.

The audience told him, “You’re a really good dancer!”

But rather than rock out to the dance club grooves he didn’t care for, he had popped in his earbuds. The club was just a He was literally dancing to the beat of a different drummer. (Or maybe a drum machine?)

Inspired by the idea of carving an unusual space within a space, Dan gathered a group of Storyluckers to meet for a book club. I got us some donuts to share. Sure, there is No Smoking, Littering, Eating, or Gambling on the train.

But there’s always food at a book club.

Printed across twenty-some sheets of printer paper our material was “The Four Fists” by F. Scott Fitzgerald. We passed the story out to our participants: myself, Dan, McKenzie, Hillel, and the rest of the Storyluckers that had responded to Dan’s book club bat signal, but also Belmont platform commuters chatting together in groups, CPS teachers on break, fathers calling their daughters, and the other red-liners swaying back and forth with us to the discussion of conflicts and epiphanies.

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The two-breath summary of the short story, which we would rapid-repeat at each stop, follows a four-fold retelling of Samuel Meredith’s life from boyhood. Each episode follows Samuel getting the wind knocked out of him. Each time, he comes to the realization that he deserved it. We don’t really discuss literary points, landing more on broader themes.

“Have you ever gotten into a fight?”

I consider myself an amateur pugilist. The answer to that question, therefore, is – kind of? Of course, I started reading “The Four Fists” and immediately connected to the motif. My first encounter with our shadowy leader Dan was in fact over a dispute over my decision to box. “I have a lot of objections to boxing,” Blue Haired Man told me. “It’s guaranteed brain damage.”

In one of my recent classes, I overheard my instructor explain the sport: “Boxing is about touching without being touched.” I instantly related to the idea. In a fight, the entire premise relies upon not being hit. Yet in all probability, you will for certain get hit. It’s a mental paradox you have to put aside while in the ring. In many ways, the way I think about interactions outside of the ring reflects that idea. I want to move through the world without having to adjust my course for other people. I want to emotionally invest in people without becoming emotionally vulnerable. This is not how it works. We cannot live untangled lives. We cannot touch without being touched. Living with other people is in some way guaranteed brain damage.

“I used to get in fights with my siblings…” said the girl across from me. I agreed – recalling the memory of having fistfuls of my little brother’s hair in my hand, the painful departure of scalp from skull as he grabbed mine. I suddenly became very conscious of Hillel and his own brother on the train, after I assented. I recall that there had been family trauma, old wounds that were probably still fresh. The train continued to rattle forward towards Howard. I offered a donut to my neighbors.

Despite our efforts, most fellow commuters were content to at most grip the sidebars and absorb our discussion like you would other train noises – men blasting their favorite rap tracks on speakers, children at recess on the blue-velvet seats, former American Idol contestants singing their heart out to Johnny Cash, or the persistent screech of train wheels. One lady I hand the passage to refuses with a wistful “I would, but I’m a teacher. School starts in two weeks and I just want to stay in vacation mode.”

As we got off the train, I realized why they’d refused our friendly advances.

I spent the next week thinking over the things we had talked about on the train. This lead to a surprising number of unsettling armchair epiphanies on my childhood. 

Breaking boundaries, violently or otherwise, can be a scary action. Maybe trepidation regarding personal revelations was why so many of our fellow train commuters had declined our invitation to step from outside their ring and into ours.

Perhaps they figured they were better off staying safe within their personal boundaries.

Thus concludes A Month Of… Boundaries. And we usher in A Month Of… Dreams: Find the Stuff Fiction is Made Of. We encourage you to come share your stories at the live show! If you post a story about the task in the comments here, you get into the show for free.

A Month Of
Stage 773 1225 W. Belmont
Wed Sept 9th 7:30-10:00
$10 free with a posted story or shared dish

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Bonnie Fan

Bonnie can be found staring too intently out the window on the red line, trying to play along to "Down by the Riverside" at Old Town jams, or perfecting a left hook to the smell of sugar cookies above Dulcelandia piñata store.

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